sometimes,
all we wished was that we we're okay.
but we can't choose.
its this time,when i say,i drop everything i have,and trust you.
it hasn't been easy,and i am still fighting for every breath.
i do feel like i'm drowning.
i do feel like i'm going to die.
but then there is That hope.
God,i let You.

i honestly wish,i still can say this.

that, you don't know how much it hurt,when you said i changed,when all i was trying to do,was to support you.

you made me taste the bitterness and having the no control to have to holding up the tears.
sometimes i wish you could just tell me how much i mean to you.tell me who i am,in your life,and don't just wait for things to happen then think of a solution.
so am i just worth a "what if i told you that you're my bff" solution?so i am just that friend who looks out for your back,and someone for you to mock,and say sorry to?or am i only worth saying that i look fine after you told me i look like the weirdest person on earth.can't you just say i look fine in every face that i am,cause i never did it to you.
this is how it feels,to be treated like someone whos close to nothing,but yet,you mean so much to me.

to you,my best friend,i really have nothing more to say to you,but i had enough of having use to your,everything.
i've been nice for too a long.and i'm just someone for you to play bully.
i'm awfully hurt.and i will never tell you how much i am used to it,cause i don't even want to listen to you anymore.

the people you love.
sometimes you don't realize how much you're hurting them,they don't realize how much they are hurting you.and sometimes you wish you could just make up to things,but sometimes,they wouldn't let go,they all seem so hard up on the insides,and sometimes,all you can wish for it for everything to be right again...cause you just miss them,having them around you.

sometimes,i wish i can tell you how much you mean to me,how much i need you two by me.cause you two really really mean alot,and if theres any chance to tell you that,maybe i'm just a little too late...and i wish i had more time to say that.But i'll give it my best shot,to salvage as much as i can...cause i don't wanna turn back and have to regret not trying to salvage it.

if there is anything i could tell you two now,is how much you just have been the sweet parts of my life.

And to the person,i've nearly let down,forgive me. and well,i want your world to be sweet,while i still have the opportunity to make it.i know i maybe so blaunt at times,but i know you know this is me. And thankyou for being there for me,you've been,simply amazing,i cannot say more,cause its beyond words.

to the world,i need to stop being a blaunt person.i need to hang with people who aren't so blaunt.

tumblr isn't a place to pen down thoughts,and the things i'd share to the world.